Almost There

I am so tired today. The kind of tired that makes you want to curl up in a small ball at the end of your bed, and blissfully float through nothing. A fog that clouds your mind. A sound that fills you and leaves no room for energy. Have you felt this sort of tired? How do you lift the mist, see clearly through the fog with no light?

I did my Spanish exam today...I'm finished the course! And very pleased to say so. Didn't do to badly either, even for someone with half a brain... I'm proud of my self for finishing something, for having something to show for this time here...Its frustrating to have so much time, and no energy to do anything with it. I believe the term is listless...

We're going home on the 30th. I can't believe it. A part of my didn't actually think I'd be coming home. Its strange, to be finally so close to what I've wanted for a whole year...it doesn't seem fair that I will have no anticipation of the moment, that because I don't remember it will be like every other day today.

I don't trust to hope that home will be the same. I want to be able to step back into my old life, like a portal opening up from this time to the past. I want to step right through it and pick up the pieces as though no time has past.
But the catch is that so time has past for you, and no time has past for me.