I went to the *omg-get-ready-to-gasp* pain doctor yesterday which is like totally original, I know! Versus spending years NOT sleeping, I'm now like in a permanent in between-sleep-and-awake state. I can't wake up in the morning, like somebody pulled my brain out through my eyes, and then turned me into J-ello. And I am just gushing with adjectives today!! But it doesn't feel so cut and dry anymore. Being asleep. Being awake. Dreaming. I think that I've hit on the other stage of 'wakefulness'. It's waking up and still being asleep, like that feeling of being trapped in a night mare and not being able to wake up, 'cept the opposite. Its like being dropped into a vat of really dense water, and swimming around your day, swimming in your unconscious consciousness.
I got some shampoo samples in the mail today which is like waayy cool! I apparently ordered a whole bunch just 'cause I can't get them in Canada. And getting the mail has always been like the most exciting this EVER for me. Even in California (when I was little, and mail was delivered to the door versus having mail pods, which is actually more fun!) mail was a seriously cool part of the day, even bills and stuff. I was weird like that. I'm like an advertisers dream too ~ I love all the spam mail and ad's and that stuff, mostly cause I can use the pictures in a collage!
Got my dressing changed today, which is so annoying. It doesn't hurt really but it is super, super uncomfortable. The stir stick sized PICC line and me are tight these days, we've really bonded, because, really, in all actuality and fact, it is worth it for having the get the frequent blood draws! They can draw straight from the line (yah! seriously! no needles involved!) which eliminates the whole *shiver* needles thing which makes me totally faint. The PICC line is something I hold very dear to my heart, and it's actually TRYING to help me, which is nice of it, really, when all I do is get mad at it and all. Seriously, if you ever have to get blood drawn frequently or need to get IV meds or are in a hospital for a long time, try and get a PICC line. No joke, you will regret it like for a week or so, and then you will become great friends. True story!
Today it was SO WARM that I wore a SHORT sleeve shirt! Wow! It was like 61 F (16 C) out there which is tres, tres exciting! When does spring start? Oh right, Natalie's birthday, sometime in March. Sigh. Still a long way.
Hey Miss Nicole: Was thinking of you today... It was one of those days when I wanted to smack some sense into some of the kids I work with. The days when kids who have treatment options (paid for by the Canadian Medical System, I might add) that will yield immediate positive results decide they have something better to do than get better and convince their parents of the same thing. So I guess I also want to smack their parents too. I felt like giving them your number and saying, "Ask her if she'd pass on f*&$ing immediate results!!!" But instead of violence, I just vented, took a few deep breaths, and complained to you! Loving the blog. Keep it up kiddo! Love Jenn XOXO
ReplyDeletePS- Monchichi forever!!!! ;)
Hoorah for warmer days! They're just around the bend! Wow, short sleeves! i love short sleeves and shorts and sandals! i belong in a warmer climate than Victoria! there was some actual flakage the other day. i know, crazy huh? snow flakes, falling from the sky! friggin' cold! but still spring is the next season, then comes summer! and u can't beat summer; the sun, the sand, the surf! best of all no school and unlimited time with friends!
ReplyDeletewell u know what that means! we'll just have to see u in the summer! i have a very strong feeling u'll be here!
please keep writing, these are great to read and great to procrastinate from homework! ;P
Je t'aime!
~ Lisa